Illustration: Person hiding in a paper bag

I am Scared

Yesterday I read an article during and after which I felt scared.  I imagine I’m not the only one who has had that experience recently, so I thought it might be helpful to share how I worked with the fear.  The first thing I did was notice. “I am scared.” To me, that simple recognition … Read more

Unbind Yourself

Unbind yourself from contradictions. If you are stuck, they may be why.  Trace your rules back to their sourceWere they ever yours to begin with?  Or were they modeled? Inherited? Overheard? Impressed upon you…or else. Did they come from an abstract authorityOr your own innermost knowing?  Were they helpful for some other time?Or someone else’s context? Unbind … Read more

Drawing of a burning candle, "Regret, like all things is a flavor of now"

Regret Lies

Regret Lies.  It will tell you it lives in the past, unfixable.It will tell you relief is in the future, In do-overs, apologies, and making amends.  But regret, like all things, is a flavor of now.It is as immediate as a heartbeat, As near as our own face.It is the burning of the heart’s wick and the melting … Read more

The Hole Inside

There’s only one thing I’ve ever foundTo fill the hole inside. Money won’t do the jobAnd a job is not enough.Looking good just covers upThe deeper painful stuff Approval from outside won’t do,Pride only last so longSoon the hole is back againAs deep and just as strong Accomplishments won’t fill itNor any trophies wonGenerosity is … Read more

Rejection

A few days ago, I woke up at 3 am and couldn’t fall back to sleep. I had unintentionally boarded the train of thought, which meandered its way to an old uncomfortable memory of getting dumped. Not recently. Vince and I are doing great which made it all the more annoying that I found myself revisiting a … Read more

ME-ditation

I’ve been meditating for over a decade and therefore it astounds me that the majority of the time I sit or lie down to meditate, this question arises:  “Um, what am I doing again?”  And then this one, “And why?” Sometimes I can find the answers in the meditation itself.    Sometimes I just let a … Read more

A story about love and getting unstuck…

Many of you read how Vince and I got together nearly two years ago.  What I didn’t include in that version, was how I got myself ready to meet my guy.For years…decades even, I believed with my whole heart I wanted to fall in love. You can imagine how frustrated I felt as I turned 30, 31…35, 36… … Read more

Going All the Way With Play

I’m so excited to share this video I made recently with the help of my new art-accomplice: Janu. If you skip the story and jump right to the video, I should warn you now: There’s lots of swear*!#g!  The story of this video starts about a month back when I grew tired of hearing myself … Read more

Loving Attention

There’s only one thing I’ve ever foundTo fill the hole inside. Money won’t do the jobAnd a job is not enough.Looking good just covers upThe deeper painful stuff Approval from outside won’t do,Pride only last so longSoon the hole is back againAs deep and just as strong Accomplishments won’t fill itNor any trophies wonGenerosity is … Read more

Voting With Our Attention

On a recent road trip, Vince and I pulled up alongside several handwritten signs staked near intersection. As the passenger, I leaned toward the window and could easily make out the messages. They all boiled down to : Trump is an idiot  Trump is crazy  Don’t trust Trump  And about 12 others. “What do they say?” Vince asked, his eyes focused on the … Read more